Okay, like always, I'm turning to penning out every single word weighing down my heart since I've no one to turn to right now. Call me lonely, but sometimes, there are moments when you realise you have to be alone. And sort out your thoughts. I'm not gonna paragraph this post, neither am I posting down lyrics cause the main reason behind this is to dump every piece of thrash out, whatever I feel is appropriate here. So emerge has started, and I missed the 2nd day when Anna had her basketball finals which I heard she lost, ): and Chuanyu had his arm wrestling thing which he advanced to the finals and thrashed the other guy silly today, while I heard that I looked weird on-screen when they showed my face for the essay writing finals and yeah, basically everything interesting happened. Like they always do when I'm absent, oh cruelty. Been crying lately, the latest credit to Steph's words that made me tear really badly. Okay, I wonder if I'll last through the whole of June, having to dodge Mum's attacks on me, while invisible blows happen to slam at my heart at will recently. To be honest, this POS brough about enough mood changes in me, one moment, the people in them make me feel so blessed and touched, the other moment, ugly facces appear threatening to tear apart the beautiful potrait. Like a single leave stranded on the waves of the ocean, it had been a bumpy ride, and I can safely say that it'd take more than weeks for my heart to stop thumping wildly. I can never describe the emotions that had taken over me these days, it's impossible. Torn between cell group and POS, more stuff had taken place, namely lots of friendships problems when I had to myself to blame for being too naive, or my rushing into things. The increasingly straining relationship with mum is starting to go overboard, it's either she break soon, or I break soon. What more, you ask. Like they say, it never rains but pours. Like every sane teeanger, I'm facing the usual dead ends of cruel love and strained finances. Overloaded, I'll say, but that's how the earth spins. It doesn't wait for you. It never will.
Ah. I got everything out. (:
Ah. I got everything out. (:
posted by cigarettelove @ 10:46 AM
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